I Wanna Be The Villain In Your Silent Movie

I wrote this the Saturday night after a totally confusing night.  I posted it while I was intoxicated.  I woke up and changed my mind about it.  Then I decided the truth was in the alcohol so here it is.

I love me some bad boys.  I'll readily admit it.  And perhaps, as someone once suggested, I deserve what I get.  Maybe I do and maybe I don't.  I do know I seem to go for the bad boys in disguise for the most part.  You know the ones who seem perfectly sweet and nice, dressed in their suits, with their clean cut hair and nice manners  Underneath that disguise they are assholes.  Or filthy.  Or into drugs.  Or drink just a touch too much.  Or have a cocky self-assuredness that makes me swoon.  The bad boys put me in my place.  They don't take my shit.

I have dated out right bad boys.  The lead singers of the band.  The motorcycle riders.  The ones who fuck anything in their path.  I don't fall in love with those boys though.  I fall in love with the ones who trick me.  The ones who come on all sensitive and caring and sweet and then turn into the bad boy.  It's like I have some sort of radar for that undercurrent of badness.  I'm drawn to it and no matter how much I swear it won't happen again it always does.  I crave the excitement that comes with a bad boy.  Or perhaps, as one boy once suggested, I just bring out the badness.

I want the boy I have to work for.  I don't want the one that just falls in my lap.  I want the tension.  The excitement.  The butterflies.  I want the boy who is going to treat me like a whore in the bedroom.  Some boys have it and some boys don't.  I suppose I want the boy who is going to tie me to the railroad track...But he'll come back and save me before it's too late.

Sex in Silent Films

Comments

[Tisha]

Understand you all too well! Bad boys get my pulse racing!

But I like the "secret" bad boys. Know what I mean?

[trouble]

Girl, I was just thinking the same thing about myself this week. I don't want the obvious bad boy. I know enough to avoid the obvious bad boys like the plague. i want the ones who sneak up on me in the dark, hook me in before I know what I'm doing, and then I'm stuck with someone who drinks too much, has a bad temper, and does all kinds of things my mom wouldn't approve of.

It's a curse.

A big time curse.

[nw]

Yes, we all wants them BAD BOYS!!! Oh they is twice the fun an trouble an is at the time worth it... Me thiks it just something ingrained into us by our mum's tellin us..''you watch out, them bad boys is no good for you'' .. So, it makes us want um even more... Unfortunately me doesnt beleive that if they ties us to the railroad tracks that they'll come an save us... That would ruin there ''bad boy'' image.. What'cha think????

It wouldn't ruin it for me. I want the bad boy with just enough good in him to save me.

[Juno888]

i want the ones who sneak up on me in the dark, hook me in before I know what I'm doing, and then I'm stuck with someone who drinks too much, has a bad temper, and does all kinds of things my mom wouldn't approve of.